For those who didn’t catch the last update, my motivation went missing. It didn’t disappear immediately when I got injured, more around the weekend of the race I was supposed to be competing in and then just flat out packed its bags and left and it hasn’t come back.
This week is the cut off deadline to sign up for Ironman 70.3 Austin which my active group of friends had signed up for and I just don’t care about it at all. Not. one. bit. It’s awful. I feel nothing except apathy. I don’t want to pay $300 (again) for a race that I currently have zero feels for and therefore know that I won’t put the training in for… How do I get around it? Do I just sign up and force myself back into a routine?
A few of my friends have gone out on a bike ride this morning (50 miles) which I would have been unsure about given the weather conditions (we had tornadoes during the night and are still on watch with flooding in a lot of places). I would have liked to have gone but 3 of the 4 riders are VERY fast (25+mph minimum) and the 4th is still faster than me so I would have been dragging along at the back the whole way. Given that I haven’t been able to train for 2 months (I have made a few small efforts here and there but nothing like my normal schedule) I know I wouldn’t be able to keep up at all which makes me feel even less like going.
I don’t know what is wrong with me but I just don’t care about it anymore.
What can I do? Help, please!